Rajvi Bagdai I have been insecure of my body for a very very long time. There have been countless times where I look at myself in the mirror and have this feeling of self-loathe dawn on me. I’m pretty sure I have body dysmorphia, it is a mental health disorder where you continuously target one or more parts of your body and criticize them, this “flaw” may not even be visible to others but the individual just can’t get over this feeling of embarrassment and anxiousness over that part of their body. For me, it has ALWAYS been my legs. I have been conscious of them for years now, I would avoid wearing shorts and bikinis and skinny jeans for the longest time, sweatpants had become my new best friend.
I hated this constant nagging feeling but I didn’t know how to get rid of it. Going shopping was something close to a nightmare, walking into that changing room and trying on clothes that either didn’t fit me or made my legs look like these weird oblong figures did not help the whole situation. I hated this feeling where every single time I looked at myself in the mirror I’d just point out all of my flaws and feel horrible about myself, I avoided going out COMPLETELY because as long as I was in my sweatpants sitting at home, binge-watching Gossip Girl, my life was good.
I have always been such a positive person and putting myself through this turmoil every single day was getting too much and that’s when I realized 2 things :
- I’m not very happy with my legs BUT I am doing something about it! I work out every single day consistently, eat healthy, and look after my body in more than just a single-tracked manner.
- NOBODY gets results overnight. If you want to get to your ideal self it is a process and you can’t simply jump the gun, so you’re left with 2 choices, either be grumpy and unmotivated and constantly push yourself OR fall in love with the process. You have to reach your ideal self one way or the other but how you get there is completely up to you.
Moral of the story: IT IS A PROCESS, if I am unhappy with a situation and I’m actively trying to better it there is no reason for me to be upset. I am working for it and sooner or later I will reach my ideal body, it’s a process and the only healthy way through is falling in love with it.
This is how I fell in love with the process and my body. It seriously helped me overcome my insecurities.
You can literally track your biggest accomplishments and problems back to the way you talk to yourself. You define yourself, so romanticize your life and keep going because once you start seeing results, there’s no stopping you!
This is the reason you need to start DOING DOING DOING. Start working harder to get your DREAM JOB, work out consistently to keep your mind and body healthy, meditate for your peace of mind, DO WHATEVER gets you closer to the person you want to be, if you’re lucky enough to fall in love with the process its going to become a part of your lifestyle.
As far as you’re DOING SOMETHING to get closer to the person you want to be, you’re definitely going the right way.
